Tuesday, November 9, 2010, I was living the dream. I'd been married for 7 1/2 years to the love of my life, enjoying life with two beautiful kids, and expecting our third on Valentine's Day. We were really starting to find our groove as a family financially, working jobs we enjoyed, and in the midst of great family and friends. I started this blog as a place to share family events, create, vent, and remember the details of my charmed life.
Then, everything changed in the blink of an eye.
My husband and best friend, Jeremy, died suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack while out hunting. More specifically, a Hypertensive and Arteriosclerotic Cardiovascular Disease.
My world has been completely flipped upside down. I find myself still suffocating in the shadow of a loss greater than anything I could have ever imagined. Everything in my life seems marked now by this great tragedy and I'm trying to figure out how to pick up all the pieces of my broken family.
Maybe one day, my blog will gradually work it's way back to the brighter undertones of scrapbooking, crafts, and general randomness. But right now, it is my outlet of outpour. It is my way to keep record of this struggle so that one day, I might look back and see where I've grown. And to remember how my kids remember their daddy so they'll have it one day to cherish. It's also become an avenue for me to discover, through self-discovery, what God has planned for us.
Thanks for reading along, I appreciate every comment and follower. If you want to know more about my story, check out these posts:
That horrible day
My first letter to my love
The autopsy results
A letter to our unborn child
Please feel free to contact me:
veronking2003@yahoo.com
9 comments:
I have been reading for blog for months now, before all this and I have to say that you are an incredible woman. It may not seem like it but you are so strong, it amazes me.
I must say, i've been following for a while. You are such a strong, young, beautiful woman. I can't imagine the struggle it is for you everyday just to get out of bed and live on, for your kids. You put those babies first and that is so admirable. I'm sure everyone reading will have their thoughts and prayers with you on Tuesday, as you welcome a new and beautiful life into this world. Props to you, my dear, for taking that one step forward to re-do your blog. It looks wonderful. I look forward to reading later posts of baby Carter's milestones and accomplishments, along with the never-failing cute comments made by Faith and Caleb. You are very brave and I'm sure there are many women out there wishing they could have half the strength you do. Keep it up :)
I am a fairly new reader. I just started reading your blog about a month or so ago. Veronica I didn't have the pleasure of knowing Jeremy, but I do know his family. I heard about your blog via Uncle Roger. I grew up down the road from Roger and Marilla and my parents were good friends with them. I am truly sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you go thru everyday and I admire your courage, and your strength in being able to do what you do. You are an incredible woman, and mother.
I've been following since directed here by Rollin' With the Roonies shortly after your husband died, but am afraid I haven't commented much, simply because everytime I try to type something. . . anything. . . that will bring you comfort or peace. . . I find myself coming up empty-handed. There are no words to match the level of sympathy, admiration, and awe that I have for you and your wonderful, precious children. I wish there was more than just words. Please know that there are lots and lots of prayers and hope for a brighter future. . . not the one you imagined, but one that will somehow bring you the happiness and peace that you deserve.
Hi Vee, I was just sitting here reading your recent post and past ones and just want to say that my heart goes out to you and your family. I can't begin to even imagine what emotions you are going through. I know we don't know each other personally but please know that you and your children are in my thoughts and prayers.
Greetings. I must confess that I 'stumbled' upon your blog while seeking out marriage-related ones. My heart breaks reading what has happened. And, i know that words would never be sufficient. But know that even strangers' feel for you and pray for you and your children. (And for your husband.)
I read about the memorial. And there is a saying that I read each Yom Kippur during the Memorial Service: One should live their life so that when they die, no one will believe it.
It seems true of your husband.
May God be with you all.
I am new to your blog. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Loss is always a hard thing - especially when it is unexpected. Some days I imagine are harder than others...
A friend of mine recommended your blog and some others, as I have just lost my best friend and boyfriend to a tragic job related "freak" accident. Here one day and gone the next. I am also having troubles with the disconnectedness and find comfort actually reading your blog realizing that other people do "get it" and feel the same way I do. Thank you for "blogging". For me, it's therapudic and comforting. I'm so sorry for the loss of your husband. Truly......
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