Today, I felt your absence. Spent time with many great people and dear friends, but I was painfully aware of the fact that I am no longer part of a couple. I can usually brush it aside and focus on other things, but it was blaring it's horn at me today. I hate harboring intense jealousy for other people and what they have. I fear I will live with uncontrollable jealousy for the rest of my life now.
I kept waiting to hear your laugh in the background while you hung out with the guys, or the sound of you chasing the kids around the yard, or seeing you hovering around the food table....my mind and my heart were playing tricks on me today. It was a cruel joke.
I've felt you close the last few days, which I'm so thankful for cause you were slipping away for awhile there. I don't know if it's because your family is here and they keep you close to me or what, but please stay close. Help me remember why I'm still fightin' this.
I miss you baby. Every minute of every day.
I love you with all that I am.